I want to remove Politics, and any Financial or Ethnic factor from this post. So when you read this, just take it for what it’s worth. That’s all I ask.
I’m not a religious person. I don’t go to Church, and I don’t pray nightly. I don’t know how many Saints there are, and I couldn’t recite one passage, even if you begged me. But that doesn’t mean I don’t believe in a higher power. That being said, I want to share with the world what’s burning through me tonight.
It’s no secret that there has been a devastating loss in Boston, MA this past week. I know if you’re like me, your thoughts are glued to every report, status update, and every breaking news statement. With both suspects taken off the streets, I know that the city that so many of us love, can start rebuilding. I just wanted to send my thoughts over to them tonight.
I also want to share my prayers tonight. I want to go a little deeper, because I honestly think it’s worth sharing.
I pray that victims and the loved ones of those that were lost due to this awful tragedy, find some small amount of justice after today. I can’t imagine the pain and loss that these people are feeling. My heart literally breaks a little more with each report.
I really pray that justice is served to this little punk who destroyed so many people’s lives, and that he gets what’s coming to him. I hope they torture him slowly, painfully, and in the most violent way possible… and then let him live. Live knowing what he did, seeing the victims faces, feeling like scum. I hope that he gets his in the end.
But… more so, and maybe even a little deeper… I feel I need to pray for humanity.
I hope that the world knows of better days. I hope that Americans… and well, no human for that matter, ever has to wake up to the sounds of SWAT teams, military men and women, or bombs exploding. No one should ever have to live in that much fear.
I pray for the young, innocent children of today. I was speaking to a girl today at work, and she said something that really shocked me. She said, “This day and age, it’s a bad time to have children. They just can’t be safe anymore.” She’s right and that’s incredibly heartbreaking. So with that, I pray that children can be safety sent off to school, without parents worrying that their babies have been shot by some crazy, madman. That children can safety play ball outside their house without being kidnapped or shot. It’s just sickening.
I pray that our future brightens. The world has changed so much in the short time that I’ve been blessed to be alive. Doors have to be locked, dead bolted, and alarms set. Children can’t even walk to the mailbox without getting snatched off the street. Dogs are violently beaten and used for sport. People are more weary of helping strangers, because in this day and age, you never know who someone might turn out to be. A hitch hiker, might turn out to be a mass murder. A principal, a drug dealer. A doctor, a rapist. Yes, that’s the kind of world we live in today. And it’s disgusting.
I’m also going to take a second and be a little selfish and pray for myself. I pray that I have the wisdom to learn from my mistakes. I pray that I have the strength to overcome what ever life throws in my face. I pray that I have the heart to love unconditionally; to forgive without holding a grudge. That I have the courage to smile, when all I want to do is fall apart. That I have the knowledge to change what I can. That I can be fearless, when others need me to be. That I can laugh and brighten up other’s days… even if it’s just for a moment.
I’m not a Saint. I know that I have a lot of things in my life, that maybe I’m not proud of. I am who I am though. I’m just a woman, who has seen enough hurt, loss, and heartache to last her a lifetime. Doesn’t anyone else ever think… enough is enough?
I wonder what it will take to make the world a better place. With every act of gun violence, people are up in arms about gun control laws… and then a bomb explodes and people are screaming for justice. It doesn’t have to be about politics. For once, it could be just about what’s right, and what’s wrong. It’s dead wrong for bombs to explode in the middle of our streets. It’s dead wrong for a whole city to have to shut down, because one asshole decides he’s going to attempt to hide from the US Government. Ha. We saw how that turned out… But at the same token, it’s dead wrong for the media to exploit victims, just so they have a story. It’s wrong for people to use pictures of victims, just so they can get a few “likes” on Facebook. In fact, I worry there’s more wrong in the world, than there is right. And THAT’S what bothers me most.
I can’t change the world. I thought I could, but I’m learning the hard way that I can’t. So rather than be a naïve little girl, I’m going to do the adult thing. I’m going to accept the fact that we live in an imperfect world. I’m accepting the fact that I only have control over me and my actions. If I can be the best person that I can be, then I’ve already made a difference to the world. I’ve added more love, understanding, hope, dreams, courage, and wisdom to this world.
So to wrap it up, (I’m sorry, I bounced off topic again), my thoughts and prayers are extended to all of those grieving tonight. My heart is broken and aching for you. Not just in Boston, but all throughout the world. I can’t change the past, but the future is still up for grabs. I may only be one person, but sometimes, all it takes is one person to make a difference.